of matte nails, and dinosaus. BECAUSE I LIKE

yey yey! i've now got dinosaurs on my nails, (L)

i want to start a nlog. a nail blog. so i can post all the nail stuff that i've done and when i have a nail artists' block i can just go there and randomly choose one design to do. hmm... so far i've done rainbow, checkers, polka dots, and now dinosaurs. what next?

and i finally got my Essie Matte About You top coat! after silly me when and emailed the wrong address to the blogshop owneer and wasted $3+ on postage i didn't get to enjoy, i went to collect it in the end T-T

okay gonna go paint my sis' nails now, wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

What should I do now.

Been pretty much cooped in my room these days from packing. Throwing away useless shit and discovering stuff. I think I'm gonna write a letter to one of my best friend in primary school who moved to Malaysia. I wonder if she's back in Singapore, or moved. oh what the heck. I'll send the letter to both her address.

I feel so cut off to the outside world. Sigh. Well, at least i have a job, looking forward to my pay at the end of december! RAWR.

Baking on tuesday, learning the guitar. Somehow, I think I'll be damn proud when I'm able to play a song on the guitar. Heh heh.

Mm, more packing tomorrow. Not looking forward.

*cues bleeding mascara, literally*

I'm really bored!

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
The Quiet, We The Kings

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Remembering Sunday, All Time Low

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Classifieds, The Academy Is..

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
City Traffic Puzzle, The Hush Sound

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Control, Metrol Station

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
My Heart, Paramore

WHAT IS 2+2?
I Wish, The Secret Handshake (cover)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
The Curse of Curves, Cute is What We Aim For

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE/LOVE?
A Perfect Mess, FFTL

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
3 A.M. , Friday Night Boys

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
She Makes Dirty Words Sound Pretty, Pierce The Veil

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Feel Good Drag, Anberlin

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Only Exception, Paramore

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Not Alone, All The Remains

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Tell Me Where You Are, Hit The Lights

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
On and On, Hit The Lights

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Sweetheart, You are Sadly Mistaken, Alesana

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Dancing With Myself, Blink 182

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Dead Memories, Slipknot

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Don't Be So Hard, The Audition

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Rule The World, Take That

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Tears Don't Fall, BFMV

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
All I Wanted, Paramore

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
World War Me, FFTL

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Archives Of Pain, Manic Street Preacher

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Back Breaker, Hit The Lights

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Don't Tell Me It's Over, Blink 182








woah, most of these do make sense. lol, i must be really bored...

I'm just bored.

I was bored and went through my archives, so i decided to compare my answers for a quiz, now and then. now answers in bold. this' from January 30, 2009

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
my ear.

still my ear \m/

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
crappy. i wanted to sleep in and skip cohort run.

tired. didn't sleep well..

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
either bob tyrell or ivan or charlene or whoever took a candid snap of me with someone else

interesting... graduation day, perhaps.

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
maybe. i sometimes get what i want, sometimes i am denied things i would exchange my phone with.

sometimes.

5: Would you ever donate blood?
yeah, why not?

i might if i ever shake off my fear of injections

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yes. once in sec one and two. it sucked. now i have fiq, he's awesome. and i DON'T want anymore guy best friends. or good friends. if you get what i mean.
yeah, duh, KAHJUN!

7: Do you want someone dead?
no. i just want them tortured and wishing they would die.

no

8:What does your last text message say?
'im sorry? i was really busy in the morning. i looked for you after school but i couldn't find you. i found out from jovina you left.'

to my awesome fiq.
private.

9:What are you thinking of right now?
why the fuck some people just think so much.
fuck this shit. i'm getting annoyed.

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
no. i fucking want to be alone and i can't be. someone won't leave me alone with their bullshit.
NO.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
early. i sleep early now. so shit doesn't creep into my thoughts.
late. i shouldn't be sleeping late this much.

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
it's my school's pe shirt. serangoon i think.
chunkfest '09

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
yes. in a very bad way.
woah. exact same answer, if you may

14: Who was the last person to text you?
that awesome fiq la.
RAWR. <-- angry.

I don't want to talk to you tonight.

I would like to scream a huge FUCK YOU.

you can pass out on the streets tonight, for all I care.

I have no idea why I'm having you around. Fuck. You're acting even worse than a good friend. Even a good friend wouldn't do that.

What shit.

christmas

i am starting real early this year.

what present do you want?

Wearing nothing but a little smirk.

the guilt for skipping the Chinese paper. :C

ANYWAY, i feel like i've really neglected my blog. even the class blog is updated! somewhat.

i have decided to bleach my hair, hehe. like only a small section, so i might be able to hide it when i have to go back to school to get the results. otherwise, just get it after 4 pm lor. LOR.

omg, just saw this on facebook, niceeeeeeee.

i shouldn't be so easily distracted. my emotions have been through a roller coaster rideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee but it's too sensitive to be blogged here. SIAN. i shall hop over to there.

BYE BYE!

AH-MAZ-ZING finds. hehehehe.

I have a love-hate relationship with craft blogs. On one hand, I love to see how other people think and how they make their stuff. But I hate it because I just don't have the time/ patience/ material to make those stuff. ):

My favourites:
For plushies: www.softiemaking.com
AIYA.
PurlBee
Loobylu


ANYWAYYY, found this pretty awesome thing hehe. i had to cut and crop it in paint but it's worth it!
(note how i've left out all the capital letters because the shift key is just to far away ):)

(i think you can click to enlarge it.)

CLICK! IT'S AWESOMELY FUNNY.

hehehehehehehe

I AM SO BORED...

yeah i am.

Bleeding Love, No Wait. Bleeding Lips.

Woah! I am terribly bored here.

Failed to bake cookies, it's so depressing I tell you, to see a failed batch of cookies. Its like 'YOU FAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. FAIL FAIL FAILLLLLLLLLL.' The feeling sucks.

it's so funny to hear people from both sides talking about the same thing. I hate being so brief on my blog. I ws reading my past posts and I don't even understand some of the posts, LOL.

Sian.

Is it true?

so shut up,shut up, shut up

I want that Billy Jader glass door bookcase. But I have no space for it ): Can I use it as my wardrobe?

I WANT I WANT I WANT.

I'm speaking IKEA.

behind your painted faces,

i totally want a microdermal!

It keeps playing,

I might have been dead, and no one would know.

Hey baby, have you had the Rock Show Tonic?

so just kill me now,

Insignificantly,

oh how ironic, I just got an email informing me my birthday's coming.

Thanks for the cake, and the box of goodies (: Many love.

To make you sad, I'm gonna stop here. Good luck to everyone for their Prelims.

If you call me today, I'll say that I'm fine.

What if one day you wake up and find,

all of us are just characters in a MMORPG?

Time to Dance.

Have been chionging the Harry Potter Series these days!

Dickson is an optimistic person which is nice to be around as he injects fun into everything he does. He also makes witty comments, leaving people to remain thinking long after he has left. He is also responsible as he is (put your band position here) and is always willing to offer his hand to help anyone who is in need.

Anyway, as i was saying. Skill 3 SPA for both Physics and Chemistry went well!

I'll end this post with a piercing on my ear that NO ONE seems to know about, hahaha.

this new post

The purpose of this new post is simple. To remove the last vulgar-dominated post. Not good for public eyes.

I like reading To Kill A Mockingbird. Its such a nice book. You all should read it sometime. Its really, good. I recommend it. Really, really.

I think I read too much. I can read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows in 7 hours. That may sound good, but in fact, ITS BAD. BECAUSE WHILE READING, I do not drink water/pee, causing me to be heaty and suffering from nosebleed/badbreath/laosai. So bottom line is, we ought to take breaks while reading and not read so much at one shot. Its bad for the eyes too. Later end up with 1000 degrees then must wear thick thick heavy specs. I wouldn't want that would I? Is this too wordy? Cause there's a barely a spacing in between. I feel that its quite wordy. But this is just like the book. FULL OF WORDS. Wordy books. They ought to include pictures of Snape in the book here and there. Stimulate our interest towards the book. So now, if you are @_@ already, this is a sign that you are not meant to read books too much at one shot -> BANG. =x

double life

I am Jasmine's split personality! Invading her blog. HOHO. I shall instil in her the habit of blogging occasionally through the use of brainwashing and mindmapping.

If you want me with cherry on top, PAY ME MONEY.

That's IF YOU CAN AFFORD ME~

My phone has no battery, and I'm lazy to charge it. Its so much trouble. :( THIS USED TO BE A FUNHOUSE, but school sadly has turned into shizz. SPA SPA SPA. SPA =/= relaxing. :(

Crumble tumble~ (so random right)

Let's make this a long post, shall we? :)

My eye is itchy.

HI GERALDINE LAM.

i must be crazy

I wonder why I refuse to change the time zone for this blog to the correct one. I must be bonkers and therefore no longer sane. Whack my head when you see me :)

i am blogging

Did I ever tell you how much KahJun rocks???? :O Now you know. HAHAH.

Good afternoon, friends of the night. Its 10.34pm. I'm Jasmine Tan and I'm currently basking in the sun. Spot the irony.

Things said from the bottom of your heart are never true because objects with high densities sink to the bottom. High density objects would be metal, which makes your confession from "the bottom of your heart" all ironic and false. So think before you use this phrase.

Today has been a good day. I went to AMK to get zips, to sew on my lips so that I can zip my mouth :)

I love sewing so much. I like to buy cloth, but end up burning them away because they do not fit. I like contributing to global warming.

Goodnights people. Goodnight Mr Sun shining so brightly in the sky now


Edit: I did not go to AMK. I must be suffering from STM. Cannot even remember where I've been to during the day. Are these the side effects of reading BLOGSHOPS too much?

As if you don't have your phone with you 24/7

Today, I almost got banged down by a bicycle. That uncle muttered something under his breath angrily, and i walked away. Lol.

Yeah this and that and, ALL NOT FUN.

Hurry, before i change my mind about you.

I refuse to be the first.

been reading too much lj secrets.

Don't like it when I'm home alone with my aunt. She freaks me out.

Her:
-Used to major in Art and Literature,
-Does great paintings and such.
But...
-Has been jobless for as long as i remember.
-Depends on her brother for money.

Is it really true that Art students have no future?!

Maybe she's the reason my parents' strongly against me being an Art student.

URGH.

I'll give you roses for your thoughts, it's prettier than a penny.

barbeque at charlene's last night! haha. shan't say much.

just watched Red Eye on channel five, it's pretty good!

i'm gonna catch harper's island later, the first killer's gonna be revealed! hmm, does that mean there's more than one killer? this show is getting better by the week, HEHE.

alright, i don't think i'll be blogging much these weeks, not that i do now, but! prelim's next week and i think i'll be spending more time in the library than at home, that's saying A LOT. haha.

oh, and did i mention i currently have runny nose and my body temp.'s 37.3degC? i hope i can still go to school tmr. hah, you don't hear me saying that everyday, do you?

alright, i typed this in less than five minutes, i know there's like a million typos. gotta rush! don't really like typing on a vaio, the keys are so flat. but it's kinda nice tho, haha! contradicting myself.

BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Livewire

so many people at the bishan library today. unexpected.

suddenly, i lost the 'feel' to blog.


bullshit.

OW OW OWWWWWWW, i didn't feel/hear a thing because my mouth was numb/i was listening to my mp3/phone

Fall Out Boy and Greenday accompanied me throughout the extraction.

(they just happen to play haha)



according to Dawn, I AM HOLY! ho ho. (hole-ly. geddit?)

East Coast park with the San Guo and a dog!

We had so much fun! and I got burnt, but who cares! Pictures not in order.

Oscar the dog

Oscar's bear!

Oscar in the cab

Oscar at the beach

Oscar looking for buried treasure

Me and kj at the shore doing idk what

Us saying hi!

what was i doing,

drawing!

in the cab...

oh, bad posture, bad posture.

the sun was shining in my eyes.

kj cam whoring, haha

me whacking kj's head in the cab

kj at it again

kj being happy in the cab

patch of grass near where we were sitting

geraldine and oscar

geraldine and I

what's with my face?!

geraldine and oscar being happy together~~

we tried to take a group photo. fail.

fail. he cut geraldine's head!

fail! we didn't even know.

finally!

thus i conclude this post.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

while s factor is on,

You Are the Bedroom

You are an indulgent person. You enjoy rest, relaxation, and pampering. You know how to find peace in a crazy life. You are good at unplugging. You tend to be very private. You don't let just anyone in. You are also a romantic. When you have someone, you tend to be very couple oriented.

What Room of the House Are You?

You Are a Peach Smoothie

You are indulgent and a bit hedonistic. You crave luxury in all aspects of your life. You are passionate and even a bit temperamental. You have strong emotions. You are fiery and expressive. You don't hide what you feel, even if people may not want to know it. You are charming and a natural entertainer. People are drawn to your charisma.

What Flavor Smoothie Are You?

that's not true..

Your Birthday's Wisdom is Individuality

Life has required you to go your own way and do your own thing. You've been taught to rely on yourself. You don't feel comfortable relying on others. You are highly motivated and aggressive. You have no problem getting things done and getting what you want. You feel like you have to look out for yourself, because no one else is.

What's Your Birthday's Wisdom?

so much to say, so little to tell.

I came here to make you dance tonight~so stuck in my head, cobra starship is good. hmm.

what's your take on these issues, i wonder.

grow up, my dear, it's time to face the world. it doesn't matter if you don't fit in, show them you can be better than them, make them regret not apreciating you. show them what you're worth.

you don't deserve half the things they're doing to you.

IKEA with one of my bestie!

went to IKEA with kahjuneeeeeeeeee! haha, i bought 6 items under $5! a box, wrapping paper set, two rolls of ribbon, and a tray to organise my table!

4e5 has really turned into my second home (or bedroom), i mean, how many students leave their clothes on their chair for a few days, leave a bottle nail polish on their school tables and have so many personal items on their assigned desk!

no one can ever say my desk is theirs, my stuff is literally overflowing from it. books underneath my desk, books stacked neatly on the floor, post its screaming I'm Fat all over the back of my chair, the tiak-tiak thing with it's own three rolls of tape, it's as though I'm a bitch and had peed all over that area! hmm.

anyway, i just finished wrapping my 90c box with the 50c wrapping paper and it's gorgeous.

need to find those magaine holders so my files won't be strewn all over the place!

Family Reunion

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

Blink 182

people should like what they have and stay loyal to them. if they don't they should throw it away. 'nuff said.

days have been long, days have been short.

let's go play and forget everything we've got.

'asks me to tell you your hair is ugly' HEHE LOOK WHO'S TALKING

TODAY WAS RATHER EVENTFUL

GOT RATHER PISSED

HOHO, MY HAMSTER IS SO CUTE

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

CSI ROCKS

I BROADCAST EVERY SHIT THAT HAPPENS IN MY LIFE

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

fuck off la.

FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE, PESKY PEST.

_|_

evoke voke voke vokeeeee

cowsgomoowhentheypoo didn't win but Bianca was great! anyway it was really cool to see everyone wearing the cgmwtp badges, haha! didn't take a picture of that tho, pictures coming up soon! they're taking so long to upload /:

after the gig we went to take drinks, that china guy was so infuriating! he just kept staring and staring and staring, fucker. urgh. anyway, i ended up with 2 bottles and i had to finish them in 5 minutes?! so i just drank half of one, poured some away and left the rest there. they smashed empty bottles!

kenneth has a picture of me pouring away jd, he was like 'Must take picture of crazy girl wasting whisky!' anyway, he haven't send it to desmond who haven't send to me.

aiya, pictures a few at a time okay.

haiyo. cannot upload. lazy la. next time.

hehe.

Goodbye. The sun rises and there's no more you and I.

nothing much these few days.

noting much to blog about, some bastard. 

some jerk, some bastard. idk what else to do, whee.

baby, tell me how you love me now.

bitch.

this is what i need, please

i think a lot when i am on the overhead bridge.

today, i thought. how sad it would be if i just died a plain canvas! and what will happen to all my stuff :O and will people ever know how i really feel?!

maybe i should write a will.

maybe i should.

Parker, do you remember?

i've got bangs.

shut the fuck up you motherfucking bitches.

hoho.

Brownies For Sale! and cookies and cupcakes and drawings and soon to come, wallets too.

i am so excited to start a blogshop. like finally, after a million years i am going to actually kick my own ass, get it off my chair and start it.

i'm not gonna say the url because i dont want my own friends buying from me :D because i'll be too ashamed of myself if i charge them, and i'd just give it to them which equals losses. 

sigh. HAHA.

bored and not tired. stupid, how can i feel not tired. 

work was stupid, tiring, and fucking idk, funny?

eeyer. EEYER. 

The more that I'm alone

wanted to post pictures, but realized no point since it's all random photos and they don't mean anything.

gonna work tmr.

gonna bake more brownies and maybe cookies and cupcakes next week.

damn, i want cash.

why can't you just stay away from shit?

making things sound way too tragic.

why am i so full of morbid thoughts?!

every time i am walking on the overhead bridge,  i would try to 'avoid' the cars below so i won't get 'banged'. and then if i do by some stupid speeding car that i missed because i was stoning or something, I THINK ABOUT MY DEATH.  like how i will get banged, maybe i'll fly some distance away, and how like, if my phone's not spoilt it'll still be playing my songs. and what people will think when they see my playlist. O_O

sigh.

anyway, this is something weird you don't hear me saying every day.

 Its ends here.. says:

 dun ever let me catch u with a dick in ur mouth.

lying is your favourite passion says:

 haha, i wont let you catch me with a dick in my mouth

 

don't think dirty. we were talking about tongue studs. those dick studs. gerald is so stupid.

HEH HEH.

 

'Anyway her cuts are like deeper than yours, lol.' To that, my dear sir, I'm just going to say, 'Is that something to be proud of?'

today was such a boring day! 

woke up at 10am, stayed in bed till 1pm, woke up, kinda did my chemistry worksheet, watched tv, walked around, watched tv, walked around.

wheeeee!

alone

i feel like so alone right now.

i feel like i have no one, everyone's asleep, and i need to talk to someone. why is this so hard?

why can't i just say anything to someone and they'll forget about it in the morning or something? why isn't there someone who i can trust enough to spill my hearts out?

here i am, feeling crappy and shitty. AND I STILL HAVE TO LISTEN TO MY STUPID SISTER TALK ON HER PHONES WITH ALL HER STUPID FRIENDS.

'i think jeffrey cheating on me la...you know he don't let you see his phone but he let -some girl's name- see you know. i know...i want to break up with him..but like, i cannot bear to...'

blah blah blah, she is so full of shit! how could she even patch up with him after all he'd done to her? she is such a stupid bitch that never learns her lesson and i'm just going to let her continue going with him and when he breaks up with her AGAIN, i'm just going to say 'i told you so' right to her face and watch her cry. can't believe omeone can be so stupid. i know i wouldn't go back to some guy now. isn't that just desperate? she is such a loser, 'i just want him happy', like, HELLO?! he doesn't even care about your feelings and you still clutch onto the hope that he's still in love with you? MOVE ON, BIATCH.

urgh. i want more money so i can spend it. i should stop spending so much money.

I AM SO FUCKING ANNOYED BY MY SISTER. SHE IS SO FULL OF BULLSHIT.

i need to talk to someone. urgh. fuck.

Let's spend tonight on top of the world.

my sis thinks her boyfriend is cheating on her. i don't really care anyway, haha.

should i cut bangs? like, my hair's so boring these few days. but if i get bangs they'll be long enough to cover my eyes so i don't have to see people i don't like. hehe.

i feel so fucked up these days for no reasons. maybe my mood will start getting better now since it's over. YAY.

sometimes i hate my parents for not letting me learn anything whe i was young. things like learning the piano. or whatever. like, they say they don't want to stress me out. but isn't stress like kinda a good thing? and now i feel so useless -_-

damn, i need to get my head straight. i am losing it. i used to go for every SSP even if i'm dead tired, never ever pon training unless i'm very sick. but on friday, i just pon-ed these two with the excuse i'm very tired. and went to collect my specs and to charlene's house to watch movies. sigh, whatever happened to the very good student of the past?!

i remember copying homework when i don't do them in the morning. now i just don't really care and just get the demerit. i remember being so freaked out when i don't have the proper books, or forgetting to hand in homework way past the due dates. now i kinda just, ignore it? and mind you, i still haven't hand in my chinese holiday homework which is supposed to be the scores for our first common test.

damn. i need to sort stuff out.

maybe i wouldn't go after all. who knows what will happen, i'll go if i'm in the mood i guess.

and what happened to all my comments! :C

I don't wanna love you, if love is this alone.

went to bake at charlene's today. gotta go get my specs tmr.

geraldine, i want to die too. can't really take it anymore, it's like, FUCK OFF EVERYONE, FUCK THE WORLD, FUCK OFF AND DIE and like, damn stupid.

bought pretty thing today! would've given you if it was the past, BUT YOU GET NOTHING NOW, HOHO.

this sucks. 

think i'm gonna get detention/demerit tmr since i don't have my history file yet.

gotta buy burjer tmr morning. i don't wanna see you.

bye byeeeeeeeeeee

you see me through cloudy eyes

first up, i gotta apologise to everyone who i had been pissy too.

think i'm pms-ing, so yeah. forgive me if i like, am super pissed off or something.

gotta go now, am illegally using my sis' laptop, whee~

ANGSTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

woke up in a very bad mood la, aiyo.

then everyone just made it worse, mr lim especially. like he keep talking about how our grades are dropping, but honestly, i don't know for the rest, but i am doing my best already! like, I TAKE NOTES DURING HIS CLASS while everyone dozes off okay. OKAYYYYYYYYYYYY.

and like, very angry inside, and cannot show. then after school your note* snapped me and i broke down! then like, i cry until i fell asleep -_-

hehe, then wake up i saw geraldine sitting near me! like, one table away :D idk why but that cheered me up alittle, anyway, yeah, went to gym. gym was good today! haha, lotsa lame jokes and STUPID mac-ah-fee thing. HAHAHAHAHA.

and like, nevermind, threesome-ing with dine and jun!

bye byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

The Veronicas - Nobody Wins

Hold your head up high
You're never wrong
Somewhere in the right you belong
You would rather fight than walk away
What a lonely way to breathe the air
What an unlovely way to say you care
Now we're too far gone for me to save
And I never thought that we'd come to this

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

Searching for the truth in your eyes
Found myself so lost don't recognize
The person now that you, you claim to be
Don't know when to stop, or where to start
You're just so caught up in who you are
Now you're far too high for me to see
I'd never thought that we'd come to this

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you're about fly, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

You never say you're sorry
Try to tell me that you love me
But don't - it's too late to take it there

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you're about fly, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins

(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)

Nobody wins

you would rather fight than walk away.

waste my time.

just bodies.

have been crappy and moody these few days. is this good? i'm not getting better, maybe i should start healing myself.

not really looking forward to saturday,  but should i go? i feel bad, like, geraldine, jovon, his birthday. urgh.

i guess i'll be going, i'll stick to dine.

but, what if i go, and things turns out worse than at tanya's?

i guess i'll just put up a brave front? hmm.

or maybe i'll have some fun there, get high, watch people get drunk.

urgh, whatever, i have overdued library fines. sigh. i don't care. 

go home, get stoned

what's happening now?

URGH.

the only word to describe sec 4 life.

anyway, went ikea that day and bought two big boxes, i'm gonna keep dead bodies in them.

anyway, did something i really really regret.. and i can't do anything about it now. i hope nothing will stir up again because of that.

i don't want to check my eyesight tomorrow, some things are better blurred.

you were the one who said you wanted to be best friends okay. not me.

urgh. i am so pissed off.

today's emath paper was a breeze, but i shouldn't say more 'cause i don't wanna jinx it. chinese was crappy! urgh, i don't wanna fail anymore.

should i go out with chingmay and nisa this sunday? haha, i've got permission~ 

training is such a bitch nowadays, after every cycle it leaves me breathless and with a mouth so parched i almost die every time. but i love all the small talks in between our turns, haha!

anyway, i am very angry now. shall post some other place, bye bye!

tagged by fiq

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
my ear.

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
crappy. i wanted to sleep in and skip cohort run.

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
either bob tyrell or ivan or charlene or whoever took a candid snap of me with someone else

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
maybe. i sometimes get what i want, sometimes i am denied things i would exchange my phone with.

5: Would you ever donate blood?
yeah, why not?

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yes. once in sec one and two. it sucked. now i have fiq, he's awesome. and i DON'T want anymore guy best friends. or good friends. if you get what i mean.

7: Do you want someone dead?
no. i just want them tortured and wishing they would die.

8:What does your last text message say?
'im sorry? i was really busy in the morning. i looked for you after school but i couldn't find you. i found out from jovina you left.'

to my awesome fiq.

9:What are you thinking of right now?
why the fuck some people just think so much.

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
no. i fucking want to be alone and i can't be. someone won't leave me alone with their bullshit.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
early. i sleep early now. so shit doesn't creep into my thoughts.

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
it's my school's pe shirt. serangoon i think.

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
yes. in a very bad way. 

14: Who was the last person to text you?
that awesome fiq la.

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
1. geraldine
2. jun?
3. charlene
4. nisa
5. rachel
6. dawn, if you wanna ;D
7. huijuan
8. jasper. so what if you don't have a blog.
9. dickson, still has a blog right?
10. clarinda!

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with? (jun)
his waterbottle. haha! i don't think he's seeing anyone la.

16: Is 3 a male or a female? (charlene)
she's secretly a tranny! haha, joking, she's a female! born female, staying female. haha, 

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing? (huijuan, clarinda)
it would be real odd. really.

18: What is Number 1 studying about? (geraldine)
hmm. english chinese amath emath physics chemistry elect history and ss? and all things shakespeare! actually its just that to kill a mockingbird book, but shakespeare makes her sound so much smarter! :D

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
prety much everyday, i go to school. lol.

20: Is Number 4 single? (nisa)
no idea. guess she is?

21: Say something about Number 2. (jun)
he loves his waterbottle. and he loves talking to me in chinese. i said that to make me happy, yey!

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together? (charlene, dawn)
i think they'll get really lame and start cracking lame jokes. haha.

23: Describe Number 9. (dickson)
rich? lame. very tall and skinny. in a military band right? 

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight? (dawn, huijuan)
crazy, they don't even know each other. i think it would be hilarious.

25: Do you like Number 8? (jasper)
maybe, maybe not. no, not really. but then again. i am not sure. this question sucks.

oh, what do you know! i have like 7 blogs on my dashboard. 2 that i actively post to, 1 i only go to when i am a loser.i should delete that blog, hahaha! 

i hate paper cuts and bleeding lips. i hope they go away.

blog authors removed. i need privacy.

today is such a great day.

our parties are way cooler than yours anyway,

friday at tanya's was more interesting compared to the previous one, considering what happened. they broke stuff, threw stuff down. namely mini oranges and shoes. spat beer and water around,  everyone trying to snatch the vodka away from jovon, kinda funny.

everyone's so comical when they're drunk. talking nonsense and falling asleep at badminton courts.

chinese new year this year ain't feeling festive enough.

i want more angbaos. so i can keep some of the money. and spend them happily.

i am too emotional for my own good. 

why am i typing so many one lined paragraphs!

i am losing it, sigh.

you felt like happiness,

bury me in all my favourite colours

today was rather moody all the way? went to school and by first period i was hit by a massive cramp. like wtf. drifted in and out of lessons, my mind was on hannibal. i am determined to finish this book because its gory and really sadistic!

chemistry was boring, mr seah never come! kinda lucky because i didn't do his homework, sigh. nothing much after that. went out to buy sweets with fiq, then came back to school. went to training. 

oh did i mention fiq kissed jovon on the cheek? that pissed dine off, hahaha, kinda funny anyhow. gym was a bitch. i jumped so much and got so out of breathe, i couldn't even scream to my mum when i reached home to ask what's for dinner. sigh. so here i am, tired and smelly from training, sitting in my room blogging. haha!

i shall go bathe now and sleep at 9. yey! that would be, 8 hours of sleep! but i bet i'll be disturbed by the-who because i have to tell that-who something else that the-who missed out. sigh.

We always strive to be:

forward-looking leaders with integrity and commitment to serve the school, the community, and the nation.

i'm holding on by letting go of you

im so tired im not going to bother to put in proper punctuation and caps.

tanya's birthday party bbq ytd was cool. i totally played fiq cause i was supposed to meet him at hougang then go to ps at dhoby with him to meet gary juan alcina and allen. budden i realised i have to go dhoby to change train so i was like, wth i go hougang for! haha, but fiq was already ._. so like, i made him go to hougang then wait for me there then come dhoby find me. okay, not making sense. anyway all the rest were late late late! and allen didnt even come meet us ause he was THAT late. anyway we were being, quote desmond chong, cheapos cause we all shared the same present which wasnt that expensive.

yeah so we went there and when we reached we couldnt find the pit but we got there after looking up and seeing nisa chingmay and rachel waving to us, lol. went up and we were quite early. tanya's other friends were super dao, dont really like them, hmm. after that people started coming, me rachel huijuan and alcina were sitting at the bench just bitching on and on and on like there's no tomorrow, and i thought of you and got quite emo. stupid shitxszsx.

anyway after that i think tanya's cousin went to but alcohol or something then blah blah they started cooking i didnt eat much. was talking most of the time there. and then things became rather tense when like, sigh. then after that they played truth or dare. quite funny. allen had to either 1) kiss john on the lips or 2) give john a hickey on his bare butt cheek. they kissed. then ginger had to kiss nisa which wasnt much of a hassle and then joel had to had ice cubes in his pants down the front, AND HE WAS WEARING SKINNIES. friggin hilarious. then nothing much already i think. EH JOHN LIKE NEVER DO HIS DARE LEH! aiyer, not fair.

then after that nothing much. oh yeah, told elvina i was okay with her, because i didnt liked her previously mostly because of you-know-who. then we just sat there and listened to music. and elvina and rachel got high on carlsberg. guess they just wanted to be happy. then allen ate chicken wings until his hands very shiny. then gary went home and left me alone to take 156! haha, but nevermind cause he promise next time if we go out he will send me home cause he stay in bishan also, wheeeeee.

yeah after that i went off with nisa because we were heading the same direction. and when we reached the side gate we couldnt get out cause we needed the card! i was like sian, we should climb over and i did. then after taking my bag, nisa's bag and her heels from her and she was gonna climb over, a resident came over and helped her open the gate!  haha, shouldnt have climbed over. anyway when we were walking some assholes on bikes were like talking shit to us when they walked pass and i was like 'fuck off' and nisa said something else. was rather pissed off. talking about issues while we were walking, rather irritated because i thought someone was lying me. sorry for that. yeah then i had to wait at the bus stop alone cause nisa and i parted ways. talked on the phone with jasper while on the bus to talk about the issues. turned out someone is quite a lying bastard.

reached home. talked some more. hung up. showered. sms-ed people. fell asleep.

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woke up early today! went to my relative's house to bai nian i guess, haha. accidentally wore all black and felt guilty for like a second. haha. then sat there while the adults talked, blah blah blah. after that went to amk for idk what reason, hmm. went to see if there're any nice games. wantedto buy a psp game but my dad like, shot me down and asked me to go buy those chiong ones. i was like, fuck off i dont want to be a fucking cheapo and go buy those chiong ones. its like, it's not like i cannot afford the 39 dollars right! urgh. stupid fucks. hate those people who sell those chiong games. hope they get caught or whatever. 

then went to novena to steamboat! whee whee, i like the spicy soup base, yum yum. then took the bus home with my sis while my dad and mum went to tpy for who-knows-what reason.

and now im home sitting in my room blogging. i need to pee. i shall go and talk to fiq and juan after that.

bye bye!

Chris Garver Said My Phone is Cool!

woke up to my cousin canceling our little outing to the tattoo show at expo. was so disappointed i ended up helping my mum peel hard boiled eggs and remove curtains for washing ):

but then he changed his mind so off we went! waited for his friends for damn long. 

blah blah, we reached the tattoo convention show! nothing much, just go there watch people get tattooed and be depressed because i can't get one yet. -cue huge sigh- took a few pictures on my phone, then we went out to eat at BK/DQ. i love nachos! yeah and then after that we went to another expo hall and saw kickapoo diet the drink! i never knew they had diet for that lor! the can was black, not very pretty, haha. and my cousin's friend's girlfriend felt cheated because she bought mua chee for $2.20 at a cart outside the hall, and inside it's only $1.50, haha.

then we went back and queued to take our pictures with Chris Garver! waited for like 30 mins, because he went to rest. think it's because of all the flashes from CAMERAS that irritated his eye, he even had to wear shades! when he came back, they made an announcement that no flash should be used when taking picture of Chris Garver from any distance, LOL. very dua pai. i fretted about not having a permanent marker. note to self: bring a permanent marker everywhere i go.

when it's finally our turn, i asked him to sign my phone! :D happy happy, i took a picture! 

see:

took a picture with him too, but it's in my cousin's camera and he wouldn't send it to me. (actually it's just a technical problem, haha.)

yeah, then went to j8 to meet my mum and sister, then went to Cotton On to buy my plain tees. did i mention Cotton On is my current fave brand? i think it's super cheap and comfortable, haha, i love their tees. but i feel ultra skinny too cause their XS for tees is still rather loose for me. i should gain some weight. and i love their leggings too! whee whee, buy me a cotton on tee~

i shall try to do either my chinese holiday homework or my commonwealth essay.

meow meow.

ps. that's cat talk for bye bye

Ngee Ann PolyTechnic-Gives You Something Xtra!

today was kinda enjoyable! tho it started out badly. dragged myself out of bed to meet fiq at PS 11.30am! fish, so early right!

then ate long john's crazy potato set~ then went up to buy stickers while waiting for juan and gary, cause we meeting them at 12. went to Made With Love, and fiq couldn't find the sticker he wanted! and i bought two ink pads, orange and lime~

and halfway gary came! and then idk how we decided to go far east. where we met juan. who was late. 1 1/2 hour late! haha, yeah, so we went to far east and walked around a little, went to get my brows done, and considered getting another anklet thingy because it's so weird now i've taken out my old one.. but none caught my fancy so i think i'll just make myself one.

then we went to ngee ann poly by bus! nothing much there, their goodie bags contained a book, water and idk what else, haha. the cup cake they gave was kinda yummy! their makan place also very cool, good food and with air con! haha, 

okay i shall end here. went back home, 52 was rather quick! maybe i can consider ngee ann poly, hmmm. too early for that! 

did i mention we bought chocolates? love! :D

my love,

today was shitty.

kinda.

seeing you just kills me inside, i'm sorry i can't let go.

bye bye.

you never taught me how to let go.

So sweet i can hardly speak.

decorated the class today with charlene! 

haha, drew lotsa cows~ maybe we could win this year, hmmm.

oh, please please do me a favour. 

if you're reading please leave a comment because i wanna know who actually reads my blog.

this is so weird *_*

Apology.

I guess I offended someone with that taken down post.

I apologize then.

Hair Straightener

haha! 

will be trying to complete my homework tonight, I'm going to be so tired tomorrow!

making the cards for chemistry, sigh. hate projects,

bye bye!

Lighthouse-The Hush Sound

Take what you need while there's time
The city will be earth in a short while
If I'm not mistaken it's been in flames
You and I will escape to the seaside

There is a storm in the distance
The wind breathing warning of its imminence
There is a lighthouse five hundred yards down
You and I will be safe there

There is a girl who haunts that lighthouse
She saved me, I was swimming
So young I almost drowned
Under the water she sang a story
Of losing her lover
She calls a warning

Love, you are foolish, you're tired
Your sleeplessness makes you a liar
The city is burning
The ocean is turning
Our only chance is the lighthouse

Her lover was a sailor
She went and she waited there
The door locked from the outside
Lover never arrived so she sings there
Soft as a siren luring the ships off their course, how alarming

We went in, we climbed up and looked out
The door locked from the outside
Three ghosts in a lighthouse

First Day of School

It Sucked. Period.

all we did was sit the whole day, then there was gym where I was hit by a massive stomach cramp.

on a brighter note, I'm now sitting in the middle of the class behind Ingfa, beside Shernise and Winston, in front of Eugene and diagonal to Shihui Clarissa Edger and Brandon.

okay, maybe that's not so good cause it's in the middle of the class, THE MIDDLE. where I may get caught by teachers for my ear. sick.

gym was pathetic. I don't even want to train anymore. guys got a new coach, and Wenqiang was like telling Bianca and me stories about the coach's son. haha, funny, the world needs more stories like those, hilariously embarrassing!  

I should go now, I'm like spamming my blog after not blogging for so long!

SPAAAAAAAAAM

SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM

SPAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMM

I had a bloody New Year's Day.

first i got my period. GROAN.

then i cut my finger. STUPID. it took like a thin slice of finger flesh, so sian. bleed like hell.

tomorrow's flag day again, for idk what organisation. sigh, and i can't skip cause someone coughivancough put me as cip leader or something like that. 

it's so unfair. i've to go collect forms tomorrow and slog in the sun to get coins so i can jiggle it in my flag day tin.

gonna complete my holiday homework tomorrow after flag day with fiq, not bad. hope it doesn't rain.

I'm gonna wear my sparkly shoes tomorrow! HAHA. so ghey, 

alright, bye.