i'm holding on by letting go of you

im so tired im not going to bother to put in proper punctuation and caps.

tanya's birthday party bbq ytd was cool. i totally played fiq cause i was supposed to meet him at hougang then go to ps at dhoby with him to meet gary juan alcina and allen. budden i realised i have to go dhoby to change train so i was like, wth i go hougang for! haha, but fiq was already ._. so like, i made him go to hougang then wait for me there then come dhoby find me. okay, not making sense. anyway all the rest were late late late! and allen didnt even come meet us ause he was THAT late. anyway we were being, quote desmond chong, cheapos cause we all shared the same present which wasnt that expensive.

yeah so we went there and when we reached we couldnt find the pit but we got there after looking up and seeing nisa chingmay and rachel waving to us, lol. went up and we were quite early. tanya's other friends were super dao, dont really like them, hmm. after that people started coming, me rachel huijuan and alcina were sitting at the bench just bitching on and on and on like there's no tomorrow, and i thought of you and got quite emo. stupid shitxszsx.

anyway after that i think tanya's cousin went to but alcohol or something then blah blah they started cooking i didnt eat much. was talking most of the time there. and then things became rather tense when like, sigh. then after that they played truth or dare. quite funny. allen had to either 1) kiss john on the lips or 2) give john a hickey on his bare butt cheek. they kissed. then ginger had to kiss nisa which wasnt much of a hassle and then joel had to had ice cubes in his pants down the front, AND HE WAS WEARING SKINNIES. friggin hilarious. then nothing much already i think. EH JOHN LIKE NEVER DO HIS DARE LEH! aiyer, not fair.

then after that nothing much. oh yeah, told elvina i was okay with her, because i didnt liked her previously mostly because of you-know-who. then we just sat there and listened to music. and elvina and rachel got high on carlsberg. guess they just wanted to be happy. then allen ate chicken wings until his hands very shiny. then gary went home and left me alone to take 156! haha, but nevermind cause he promise next time if we go out he will send me home cause he stay in bishan also, wheeeeee.

yeah after that i went off with nisa because we were heading the same direction. and when we reached the side gate we couldnt get out cause we needed the card! i was like sian, we should climb over and i did. then after taking my bag, nisa's bag and her heels from her and she was gonna climb over, a resident came over and helped her open the gate!  haha, shouldnt have climbed over. anyway when we were walking some assholes on bikes were like talking shit to us when they walked pass and i was like 'fuck off' and nisa said something else. was rather pissed off. talking about issues while we were walking, rather irritated because i thought someone was lying me. sorry for that. yeah then i had to wait at the bus stop alone cause nisa and i parted ways. talked on the phone with jasper while on the bus to talk about the issues. turned out someone is quite a lying bastard.

reached home. talked some more. hung up. showered. sms-ed people. fell asleep.

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woke up early today! went to my relative's house to bai nian i guess, haha. accidentally wore all black and felt guilty for like a second. haha. then sat there while the adults talked, blah blah blah. after that went to amk for idk what reason, hmm. went to see if there're any nice games. wantedto buy a psp game but my dad like, shot me down and asked me to go buy those chiong ones. i was like, fuck off i dont want to be a fucking cheapo and go buy those chiong ones. its like, it's not like i cannot afford the 39 dollars right! urgh. stupid fucks. hate those people who sell those chiong games. hope they get caught or whatever. 

then went to novena to steamboat! whee whee, i like the spicy soup base, yum yum. then took the bus home with my sis while my dad and mum went to tpy for who-knows-what reason.

and now im home sitting in my room blogging. i need to pee. i shall go and talk to fiq and juan after that.

bye bye!