alone

i feel like so alone right now.

i feel like i have no one, everyone's asleep, and i need to talk to someone. why is this so hard?

why can't i just say anything to someone and they'll forget about it in the morning or something? why isn't there someone who i can trust enough to spill my hearts out?

here i am, feeling crappy and shitty. AND I STILL HAVE TO LISTEN TO MY STUPID SISTER TALK ON HER PHONES WITH ALL HER STUPID FRIENDS.

'i think jeffrey cheating on me la...you know he don't let you see his phone but he let -some girl's name- see you know. i know...i want to break up with him..but like, i cannot bear to...'

blah blah blah, she is so full of shit! how could she even patch up with him after all he'd done to her? she is such a stupid bitch that never learns her lesson and i'm just going to let her continue going with him and when he breaks up with her AGAIN, i'm just going to say 'i told you so' right to her face and watch her cry. can't believe omeone can be so stupid. i know i wouldn't go back to some guy now. isn't that just desperate? she is such a loser, 'i just want him happy', like, HELLO?! he doesn't even care about your feelings and you still clutch onto the hope that he's still in love with you? MOVE ON, BIATCH.

urgh. i want more money so i can spend it. i should stop spending so much money.

I AM SO FUCKING ANNOYED BY MY SISTER. SHE IS SO FULL OF BULLSHIT.

i need to talk to someone. urgh. fuck.